today is raining heavily ....

In the evening , I have planned jogging with hui kheng...This is the first time we jogging since mid year exam.But when we arrived there,there is raining heavily.we have gone through the experience running away from the horror surau...so fear of us...but we have run under the heavy rain...love this excited act...

ThE tROuble stiLL WoUlD coMeS To My hUrt aGaiN....

Why every family would have its own problem? Can it be solved immediately? I hate this kind of feeling.I am quite afraid of it...the one who understands me sure know my problem.I have never been meet up this kind of sadness before since I have lived for 19 years.I am desperate , disappointed , upset and even cry when I am praying to God yesterday.The sadness can't be removed forever d.I hate this sadness and hate myself why I am too useless like this...Always cry when there is a problem...can I stop crying or my eyes would be dried off? I hate crying but I still can't control myself from crawling out...What else can I do for my mum? I am tired now and need time and energy to heal my hurt...Before my hurt being recovery ,the continuously trouble still comes to my hurt again.It just like someone is putting salt on my injury...broken heart...When I have been changed to pessimistic ? I used to be optimistic before? Haiz,when can I take a long break to rest and stop listening and knowing what the hell happen in this world?
I hate him bcoz he is irresponsible in our family.just use his loudly sound to overcome our questions but it is useless to us.