一早起身笑笑下～！哇咔咔～

belief belief belief ....let it be ...

wawawawawawawawawaa......
seeing some of my friends giving me their wishes
I just being moved a bit
omg... you're too nice to me , still remember my presence in stpm
I have tried to write down all the answers I think is right with the questions
I mean it
I did it by my own principle and sincere words
I don't know is the answer is right or not , but I just think I want keep on writing , writing and writing
can't bother too much about the past papers le
after that paper , forget it from deep  heart
if can't forget , pls try to relax by exercise and other methods
it's depend on your determination oh...
to be calm and determined
I've tried to take good care of my body
I didn't eat rubbish things , just eat healthy cookings
I want a healthy body to confront the next paper
stpm , fast fast go away
yesterday , I knew my girls' trip was no longer exist in DEC.
a bit disappointed and feel that it's a waste of chance for 10 of us...
but never mind la , study is the prior , some are going to taking their test
hope there's a happy journey for me in DEC.
thinking of playing is a way to release pain...

okokokokok.......=) let bygone be bygone ....

start from 23th of November ( PA paper 2 ) until today ( physic paper 2 ) ,
this time exam is difficult in fact ><
my heart is pumping with fast speed and can't release my tension ....
esp the nights before the exam....
actually I had let my body and eyes to be tired with skipping the sleep in the afternoon
in the night , though they'd given me sensation feel to go asleep , I still can't fall asleep
 T.T lousy minded with lousy pictures in brain , ask me don't think too much ,
but I can't control my mind
I really can sleep in the afternoon in the relaxing day...haiz ...
who can help me to fall asleep without being frightened... mamamamamamamamamamama......
help me ...
6 more papers , the damn painstaking moment is going to be ended and stopped ....
But I wish it is ended right now la ... heart is beating faster and faster ...
even my motion is fast... last night , as I stepped down the stairs in my house,
I'd fallen down with the moist and wet floor ... thanks for my lil bro lo , he didn't mop properly ...
and my dad scolded him , he scare my waist is going to break ...haha ... "gd luck" before exam==
my hand was hurt ... so bad T.T BUT stress is far more than pain , this time falling is not pain ==
I am going to be crazy ... wakakakakaka....
last night , as having dinner , I was happy with laughter , thanks for my 2nd bro and mum ...
they kept on  kidding with me ... lessen my high high stress ... 
jia you jia you x 100000000000... must use up full energy and spirit to against the papers which only can be done in 2 or more hours but were prepared for almost 1 and half years ...
friends , gambateh and fight with it in high spirit ... jia you and good luck ...continue to study ...

suddenly feel the stress is coming out from my mind....don't come out ....please !!!!

I don't want you ....get away from my mind ....
don't be present in front of me ....
in the early morning , I waked up and sit on sofa for studying
but , I still can't focus
I could only see the words
but couldn't read it deeply
at that moment , my dad waked up too
and accompanies me in the parlour
I thought he couldn't sleep and stand me anymore
coz he knew I studied overnight in friend's house
then he asked me was I not sleep and study overnight ?
I answered no la, just waked up only
he said to me with somemore angry sound
"you can't study like this , can you don't be silly in studying ?"
I was silent
I had promised myself don't bicker with dad if I can
I know you care me
but don't worry me
after dad goes to work
mum brought me to have a breakfast
after eating , I kept on asking back home
on the return way , tears was pouring
my stress was underway to welcome me
I asked my mum , if I can't get good result , how ?
my mum answered me calmly
if can't do it , then go to study course . it doesn't matter d...

3 days 2 nights for study-ing +++

from Friday to Sunday , I was embedded in the study space with trulyand friendly friends
spent 20 hours for studying in one day
don't know where got the fully charged body and energy to confront these days
though being tired and left behind the stuck brain
still had the stamina which was not found at our own house
maybe we need the calm and restrictive environment for us to fight with the tips , papers , notes
OMG!!!
I was surprise I can do it
I love the space within " 3 swordsmen " in the night
through this conversation , gain a bit feeling le ~ haha
finally  , got feeling ...LOL
thanks for cheng who provides the space for study
thanks for ze n yiing who had been made insane by me ...haha
and I really treasure the time with both of you...
'miao miao' the sound is familiar to me  , but is annoying me ==
I've done some maths which I WISH TO DO yesterday night
until 5 somemore , I can't stand the call from my dreamer
during  the midnight  , heard many car engines' sounds from neighbouring house estates at cheng's house
yesterday , only me can study in the midnight , haha ... admire of myself loo....
gambateh , jia you , and buck up .... fighting until the last minute...promise !!!!
friends , jia you arh .... take care there .... don't get sick  now!!!
drink more more water
want sleep now .... after reaching home , being alone ...
without lil brother's noisy sound , hope can sleep longer ...haha

用心聆听吧～^

I am afraid to see the others' post on FB.....

yesterday night , I went through the papers which were returned by friends
haha , chia hui said she will return it to me after stpm
but yesterday she gave it to me and asked me back home see @@
glad to see hers
she feel awkward ~
As I saw her paper , though she didn't decorate much , just words ,
but her words let me feel warm and let me think back some past histories
last time both of us had talked much in the class and our eyes were filled with tears
esp me , that time , I had been cried for a whole day in school xp
her words seem like the event just happened yesterday
from that paper ,  my tears were forced out ... haha ...
it turns out she is very concern about me ... chia hui , you're a nice friend
thanks for your advice and giving me your opinions as I was upset last time
and thx for all my friends for giving your views to me
fortunately , I didn't online on yesterday night ...
there were many many many posts about the last day in SSI
omg!!!
my friends , don't be too sad
be glad to welcome to the coming stpm and  be pleased for our next meeting...
we sure can meet up again
I am unwilling to see the postssss
coz it only leads my mind filled with all sorts of feelings
don't worry , we'll meet again d~ friends
hope everything is fine with you all

wonder why I was dull today .....but yet get shocked ....T.T

Today is form 6 last day in SSI before the STPM exam ...
In the morning , I feel a bit not well
after entering the class , I was happy as usual and chatting with classmates , esp with jia mei
about 9.30 a.m. , all  the form 6 students were asked to do the chores
look like we were workers , FOC ones ...==
no wind blowing anymore today ...
it's very hot , I was streaming with sweat , I worked with jia mei too...
it's funny cooperation between us
after working for quite a long time , we felt tired
we kept on standing on spot  and help to pass the chairs and tables to the spare room
eventually this work is changed to testing whether the conditions of the chairs and tables can be used
on the coming exam ...T.T (IT'S GETTING NEARER N NEARER TO ME )
I was doing the silly things ...=)
but after being too high , I was dull suddenly
don't know what can let me feel today is such a boring day
hahaha
I was silent and don't want talk too much n don't catch photos with the others using my phone
I was not feeling sad
but it's a strange feel I don't know
I finally wanna to find the teachers I loved to take few pics
just few for today
it's not an usual thing
I just wanna to be silent
I saw some were with red eyes le@@
but I have nothing feel ...is it calm?ha
don't know
after school
I asked terk chian  fetch me to Kuo Kuang bus stop
on the half way
as I was talking with chia lian and terk chian
the car in front of us suddenly stopped at all
fortunately , terk chian could brake fastly
but it's emergency brake
as he pressed the brake , I was screaming ... being shocked with the sudden braking
my screaming leads my throat getting dry and changes my soundomg
but it's still an accident coz ren yong's car be the last car which knocked towards the SG car behind
terk chian's car and the SG car knocked chian's car...3 cars be involved !!!same with the last time...be afraid
oh gosh!
what a bad day!!
my mum was waiting me at there ady
maybe she was waiting till being angry le... fortunately yeun said he wants my mum fetching him back
the place of accident is the same as the last time yann's accident ...
I had been there twice , scaring ...
haiz , the last day still got accident .... ren yong n terk chian were unlucky ... but terk chian's car was fine , not serious ... but  ren yong's car was serious one ...
I don't want drive anymore from now on.... coz  I am not in good condition and no mood....

It's time to study again....

study study study!!!

have a centre point in heart

go for stpm

work very very hard

try my best to do it

I have to keep my body healthy

keep my mind fresh

keep my sense true

keep my eyes clear

and keep the friends by my side

thank tong mei for support me

thanks you arh....

I'll arrange my time with you d

PA 

if any friends want her help 

can join us la xp

but I won't ask others le

since you want then tell me here or sms me

forgiving me not informing others

coz I have too many things to study...^^

jia you x 100

the guys who copy my words will be punished

haha

after stpm 

I won't forget to treat the guys whom I had taken help from them

don't worry ya

after stpm then come to find me ba...

friday always be the day for eating and playing and enjoying....^^like (",)

plenty of sushissss.....hahaha

see our main role today , she is going to get 19 years old...

seems like really tasty right ? it's not bad la xp

see these silly guys ==

sotong is my favourite ^^

love this combined pic with all the nice ppl...

me and the birthday girl -yuan...

love this pic too....got feel

love this much much ..... muacks given by cutie mei....hahaha

the  guest rooms

wines were orderly placed on the wall

a bit blur la...sorry ya yuan....>.<

yuan is surrounded by two big guys ...^ look like safety guard...xp

I love this photo frame ... the pic is pretty ~!

the sampat mersing team....high!!!

inside there got rotating sushi....

cutie girlsssss

silly guys with good intentions ...

pics with yuan....

see the behind of the motor....got a funny cartoon - chicken little...hahaha

after few more days ,

one cutie is going to turn into 19 age lolll

hope she get the wishes she want to 

hope everything is fine to her

hope her find her Mr. Right soon

must faster than me ^^

I am waiting my Mr. Right too...hahaha

joking d la...it's depend on the fate

fate is a special thing I believe

haha

today she is very very happy with us

coz her smiley face is always there

her stories are never ended ^^

we had brought her to Don Sushi in perling one

eating , shouting , talking , laughing , and photoing there

my sickness was no longer disturb me at the moment

thanks god!

after eating lunch 

gifts were given to yuan - our main role today

all the gifts are photo frames with different patterns

I like them 

coz frames are filled with our memories pics

hope after stpm , we still can be like the past

always going out for enjoying our life

pretty friendship I treasure much

every gathering I loved

perhaps the gathering won't be ended

the caring and love from you all won't be forgotten

though I can't memory much 

haha

it's quite many words I typed here !!!

but they are from my heart

 Xin Yuan , HAppY BirtHdAy....

Oh My God==!

yesterday before afternoon sleep

feel damn suffering

keep on sneezing 

I think my sickness rises up ==

sore throat and runny nose 

fast get away from my body

I don't want get fever later

otherwise it'll let me don't have any energy to study

It doesn't be kicked out today >.<

10-11-10....my sixth sense told me you're not alright....

My sixth sense is indeed right

Once I saw your eyelids

I knew you must have something

you sure wonder why I know ??

coz I also cried till swollen before

as some of my friends asked me y it's swollen?

I just said I didn't sleep well

and it's automatically become like this 

almost all of my friends were cheated 

wakakaka

but there were some who were clever

THUS  I am clever now ... hahaha

my loved friend

jia you jia you ...arh

it must have misunderstanding btw both of you

actually she cares you most

once the misunderstanding is solved 

you and her would return back to the warm embrace

jia you jia you ....

I'm surprise you are aware of her teared face

I am not aware of my mum's face whether she cried before or nt

haha

mayb My super mummy is superwoman

she won't cry over small thing

but there's a big thing I saw her cried in front of me 

I was fear at that moment

I was shocked

tell you secret I cried with her

I am a crybaby since that

who else never cry before 

can ask me teach you ==!

wonder how long time I cried last time?

it's 3 months 

everyday 

I cried and slept and did nothing ><

useless of teng hor?!

it's indeed 

" teng "

cheer up and buck up !!!

fatty mummy with chubby and fatty girl ...LOL

mum : do you want to jog tmr ?

you have been long time not do sport exercise

now you seem like getting more plump 

haha

LOL

me : yalo , I've become a fatty and chubby girl la==

long time no jog looo

I want slim down la ==

I am hAppY tODay.....=)

dunno why I feel full today ...

enriched with greatest sense of my own favorite

my heart is warm  today

the feeling had been lost for quite one year ==

I love discussion the questions with my classmates

that's amused

I've absorbed the main points clearly

It indeed makes me laughing uncontrollably

I like them 

wakakakaka

I love my physic teacher!!!

she is very patient to teach me =)

I am happy that I finally understand the things I've to know

I want the flying colors in my stpm result

I really mean it

pray for me =)

thanks for the guys who had returned me 

the color papers with their kind colorful design 

thanks for you all cooperation =)

poverty is a cruel and suffering fact which we still haven't notice it....

8 years old child

there are many people feel their life can be better
in reality , many people only want to be success
to have high quality life style
but there are children and adults only want food
they don't have too much desires
they want 3 meals everyday
but their wishes were not be allowed
reason is simple
there is not enough food for them
along the road they lived is full of rubbishes
they are living in a stinking and cloying dumpsite
their daily works are collect the cans or valuable things
do you know where they find these?
is in the large dump site filled with rotten and rusty rubbishes
omg
some children aged 6-17 years old
were trying to collect much more valuable steels or tins
for the sake of their families
to earn money to get some food which can't afford their need
the children even can manage to climb up the dump lorry
and find the things they want within 200-300 miles
the driver of the lorry won't care for them
the children are full of a kind of special spirit
the firm and persistent spirit is touched by me
they were asked why they want be so stubborn to do this dangerous act
they gave a simple but inspiring humankind answer
they just have to do this to get meal to their loved elder
they won't be afraid of being injured
they only want food supply
though there's small amount of fund from fund community given to them
and let them choose whether do business or buy food
you think they would choose what ?
 

being moved and inspired

continue to work hard...it gives me the power to study =)

haiz !!!!give me tonnes of memories to take in all the things for the exam use

I am totally feel my deadline is coming

and I don't have other methods to keep the formulae in my mind

who can help me????

I want do exercises 

but I can't solve thequestions

I want a friendly teacher to sit beside me

and teach me the ways to solve them

mamamamamma

I don't want give up

I want do the best

I want 

I want

I want

perhaps I can really do the questions 

with my useless memory

you you you.....

got someone who suddenly told me 

'I feel anxious,I am in fear'

THIS feeling had been long time absent in my mind

now is your turn to be anxious

though I knew the reasons

but I can't help you

is you yourself can curb it

the problem you have to face 

 I can help you with my support only

give you a big smile here~

hope you can help yourself

give you big claps if you've done well

be strong to face the probs 

loves these big big smiles when I was down with lots stories behind

keep yourself calm and determined =)

jia you!

people will change , things will change and the sky will change color...

 sometimes I really can't control my mind to think

think about the guys whom I cared before

if my brain is clear without those nonsenses

I would be happier

I want to be the naive girl I used to be in previous

but now I can't return back to my previous one anymore

I just think how they change to such cruel

-be the ones who give the cold sense to me

the coldness is brought to my mind 

let me feel like I don't recognize you anymore

since we were known each other for several years ady 

     -be the ones I don't know what's they thinking

I decided not to bother their thinking anymore

your think , your do , your anything

I don't want to see and hear from now on

 

I promise

I will do it with my own way

won't take it to heart ....

Today all the form 6 ppl were forced to join the police speech

my precious time was wasted for this such useless videos

about rape , stealing and etc 

I was tired to listen it 

fortunately I had my time with dreams...xp

today I knew a secret lol

as my mum fetched me back home after schooling

 my mum told me :

do you know y ur dad didn't scold you abt the accident?

bcoz your eyes were reddish

he scared you cry out 

hahahahaha

lol

I really didn't know my eyes were reddish like that

I didn't cry for the accident ^^

I have been gone through many many events 

in this year

I have been grown up lots

u think I will cry for this ???

no no no 

I am brave enough to handle this

YET I am determined and a bit 'calm'

maybe I were blur blur one

but I had tried to manage the probs by my own

dad , I know you love me 

though I had given you my temper before

try to lower my bad temper arh

XD

thanks lots , loved dad!!!

you know me dislike nagging and loud scold

you had been endured me lots

and quit nag me anymore ...haha

I love to this much ~*

small hand always be protected by big hand ... haha xp

I appreciate it most!!!

you had given me the best encourage ... 

first time to give you my praise here...

I will give back double to you ...