Finally , I can breathe freely and be relax with current news surrounding me...Finally I can accept the truth . Finally , I can the thing I always do . N laugh the thing which I want to laugh ....After going to church , I realize that there must be a solution for people to solve their own problems ....Though we are normal people , we have six senses and feeling with others especially family . Since I have strong admire with my his personality , but the person I loved , the larger the hurt be get ...Now I can slowly adapt his temper and think his doing is crazy and like a shit ...So I won't take it to my heart. I would't believe him anymore....I wouldn't cry for him....I wouldn't laugh for him ...I really don't have any sympathy for you ....the way you do for me ,the way i return to you....With some friends' aids , I really feel that with u by my side , I feel better and seems like freed from jail...lozz....thanks lozzz.....!!! muack....

Now I have to be strong and calm to see the thing and and listen the words surrounding me...I have to accompany someone to solve the problems and to advise the one to be generous in mind . How to make a person be happy ? Now , I have to find out the ways to cure this .....


Recently, there were some severe problems happened in my family members in our home.
Mummy has sarcoma of womb , me has grave disease , my brother has stomachache , and so many troubles wound round me , i can't breathe at all ....my heartbeat flows rapidly....I am really worry about my mummy!!!! btw , I pray to the 'GOD' and and my wish is let my mummy not to be worry and agitated as well as be crazy with our matters . She is the best person whom I love ....I can't bear to separate with her d, and I want be together with her forever ... I know it's the time for me to freeze my mind and be strong to accept the task which was given by GOD....Hope everything is fine ....

God is giving me time to decide my future path and let me see the truth in the surrounding of me by my sensation

15-Since you at night e3 brings me go out for yamcha~
we cry together n hold hand-in-hand~
in that time,i really want ee always be my side!she is the person who understands me~i had told her how the days i had since march ago.our spirits meet up .she said her U life n wat da problem she face nw n wat da matter her roommate experienced before~
ps: Today I hav cried for 4 times . How I wish to be calm and stop crying anymore. How I be determine to continue my study ?! but my future is full of darkness and I can't see my future anymore. My heart is beating hardly. =.=

16-hav fun wif my good friends^wif my broken n repaired heart~i need this whole day to diminish my depress that was gathered tightly. how i wish i can destroy it,but i can't control myself at all.today finally i never cry le~i thk it's my ee's effort ba.she's my angel ~she brings happiness to me ,though my smile is mixed wif a sour complicated taste,but i hav tried to get my sensation.i thk it's a good start for me in the following days~i'm sorry to let u worry d~u r my faithful friend n listerner!coz u will always be my shoulder that i don't want to lose~ i need ur love n shoulder~for u all supports ,i will work hard to divide precisely my concentration to 2 parts that are for my mum n for my study.i know u all wan me keep on studying.n i hav decided to give 100%+100%=200%to do my chores ~thanks for ur supports^i really appreciate it with my teardrops^i promise i would take care of my healthy as studying. thxanks for u all friends' supports...I LOVE U!

Hope someone can light up my life and give me instruction in the path I have to take...

everything which happens in your life is planned precisely by GOD , we can't change our fate but we can control our fate by changing our attitude and view towards any problems.Ayw, I want to shout out : though now I am facing a great turning point in my life, but I have to face it naturally with all my efforts because the thing has happened in front of me , I can't change it to original way as before again.this is called my fate , it's the time I have experience this event. I know is not only me face this problem . This is the time I have to concentrate in my study and my mummy !!!

心淡了。。。

Eye tearing everyday is a part and parcel in my life since march in 2010.There is a great change in my life, i thk it may be a turning point or milestone in my 19 years. I think this event has created a big and unchangeable revolution in my mind...With your any cruel words and inhumane doing , It makes my closest person get hurt mentally but not physically . Can YOU think about all your words and doings before the action is done by you....can bear us a free places to find our real soul and spirit as well as just be ourselves, let us don't see you and listern your sound ...I loathe your harsh words to my dear person . Can you get out from my life and let me feel my world is full of good memories but not the things and words made by you. Do you know all my feeling now and make me be freed from it? Just walk out of my life. I only want the beauty of my life , don't want the grime of my life . I want the beauty of physic don't want the ugliest thing in my mind.You really make me disappointed , despair and frustrated...I even can't forgive what you said and done before....Don't ask me anything about it anymore...I don't want you to destroy the beauty of my life...Hope my wishes come true!!thanks GOD!!!

anyone , anytime , anywhere can make you disappointed , despair , upset ... although you try to avoid it from appearing in font of you , but the more you wish , the higher the percentage you get it ... I had tired of , bored of , be sick of this damn superb duper happening!!! Hope God will give some help on my life...thankzZ!

心淡了。。。我会坚强的，你让我知道什么叫做残忍，你也让我知道你什么叫做虚伪。。。

with you all supports and and concerns , I will be strong and calm to meet up any obstacles in front of me , pls don't worry me coz I will learn to take good care of myself, and hope all of you be well and happy . thx thx thx !!! ♥